What Are We?

What do you do when you've liked someone for so long and you're pretty much sure they're never going to feel the same? What do you do when you find out they might've liked you at some point?

I'm going to tell you right now. Honey, if you are the "go to girl" whenever he has issues with the girl he actually likes at the time, chances are, you are stuck in the friend zone. It is a horrible place, don't worry, I know how you feel.

All the time, I'd constantly be there for him whenever he needed me to. And the worst part was, he never knew how I felt. He didn't know how much it killed me knowing about whoever she was at the time and how much he just wanted to let her know he was there and his feelings were real. This may sound selfish, but what about me? I mean, granted, he never knew so I can never blame him. It was a privilege to just be there for him. I was happy knowing he trusted me and that I was someone he could rely on.

But then I blew it and there was this whole issue that is supposedly slightly resolved, but I know that he doesn't want to let me in anymore. I guess it's time to say goodbye to his rare late night phone calls whenever he was stuck and didn't know what to do.

The best thing I can do for him is let him know that I am here. That should suffice. I can't say I'm happy that we're just friends, but I am happy that he's still here.